Hi there! Outside my window, the awakening of a new day. A New Day. What a miracle to be alive to witness it from here. The backdrop of orange, yellow and blue behind the darkness of the trees and their baby branches. It's gorgeous out there....and from in here, I've been waiting for the sun.
The sun; that amazing star that provides us with Life. I am imagining the earth right now receiving what it needs for growth. The earth needn't 'do' anything....but simply receive what it is given. By the hands of those that planted (or by the wind that lay the seeds), the earth receives. The earth receives nurturance - water, oxygen, carbon dioxide, love, food. All that it needs to support new growth of beautiful plants and trees.
And we, the abundant receivers of the earth's bounty, rejoice in what is given.
One of the beautiful things about eating raw foods is that every moment, I get to thank the earth for what I am about to receive. It's so much more obvious to me that someone planted, someone picked, etc...what I am about to eat, when I am looking down at a raw avocado, or grapefruit or delicious mixed salad that my friend, Eva, made for me!
When food is so packaged and processed, I tend to forget to be thankful....even if the taste is good.
As I move through the layers upon layers of grief, I am reminded this morning to be thankful.
Raw Love, Robyn
Friday, February 29, 2008
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Rawness
Hi,
I haven't written in about a month as life in the raw lane has taken many twists and turns. It seems extraordinary even to write in this moment of incredible raw-ness. But alas, that is why I am writing.
My Beloved died last week of Leukemia. Yes. He died on February 5. On a Tuesday....at 3:38 am. At least that is the time I believe that I heard him take his last quiet breath.
It was an amazing experience and despite the depth of grief that I feel, I also feel the awe of witnessing Death. It is very raw.
As Death moved in, it awoken me. I thought my Beloved woke me up at 3:15 am and perhaps he did...but I believe also that Death moving in my energy field, woke me up. I felt Fear....the Fear of a young child perhaps.
I was so thankful for being woken up because those next 20 minutes were Dale's last breaths. I listened in a dreamy-sleep-like-awake state to his breathing....that had moved from a heavy, deep breath, to a soft one. And then the breaths became less frequent and then suddenly, they stopped. And the Quiet was so loud.
I put my hands on him and felt only stillness. I felt his warm body slowly get cold. I 'saw' a bubble above and inside it an ecstatic, alive, vital, full ENERGY. My Beloved's energy that I had so missed these last months of illness. All at once, I had compassion for what he himself probably had also been missing. It was a beautiful thing to remember that aliveness...that after being dampened for so long, was hard to connect with. It was his Essence; and it stayed around for a while before departing.
Rawness....the raw feelings I feel are so good. So earthy, so real, so what life is all about.
And I know that eating raw foods daily offers me the vital, alive, essence of Life that I strive to express every day.
With Love, Robyn
I haven't written in about a month as life in the raw lane has taken many twists and turns. It seems extraordinary even to write in this moment of incredible raw-ness. But alas, that is why I am writing.
My Beloved died last week of Leukemia. Yes. He died on February 5. On a Tuesday....at 3:38 am. At least that is the time I believe that I heard him take his last quiet breath.
It was an amazing experience and despite the depth of grief that I feel, I also feel the awe of witnessing Death. It is very raw.
As Death moved in, it awoken me. I thought my Beloved woke me up at 3:15 am and perhaps he did...but I believe also that Death moving in my energy field, woke me up. I felt Fear....the Fear of a young child perhaps.
I was so thankful for being woken up because those next 20 minutes were Dale's last breaths. I listened in a dreamy-sleep-like-awake state to his breathing....that had moved from a heavy, deep breath, to a soft one. And then the breaths became less frequent and then suddenly, they stopped. And the Quiet was so loud.
I put my hands on him and felt only stillness. I felt his warm body slowly get cold. I 'saw' a bubble above and inside it an ecstatic, alive, vital, full ENERGY. My Beloved's energy that I had so missed these last months of illness. All at once, I had compassion for what he himself probably had also been missing. It was a beautiful thing to remember that aliveness...that after being dampened for so long, was hard to connect with. It was his Essence; and it stayed around for a while before departing.
Rawness....the raw feelings I feel are so good. So earthy, so real, so what life is all about.
And I know that eating raw foods daily offers me the vital, alive, essence of Life that I strive to express every day.
With Love, Robyn
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